9 posts from October 2008

Don't you hate it when something scares the shit out of you and when you figure out what it is you're totally pissed because it was something so stupid?

Like, when you're sitting on the computer at home by yourself and you forget you left a closet door open so your cat gets in there without you knowing and knocks a bunch of shit over. Oh, and the closet door is right by the front door so you think someone is breaking in because you're paranoid like that.

I hate when that happens.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention something that happened to me the other day. I get this random text message from this girl who is obviously in middle school or something and it was the stupidest thing. I was going to just ignore it but I decided to be obnoxious and text back. Our conversation went something like this:

Girl: "Hey its cindy and i called ur house but u wasnt their hey u no chris in 7th grade do u thank i should break up wid john and go out wid chris"
Me: "no gurl, i hooked up wid him"
Girl: "Well im going to break up wid john to go out wid cris cause john dont act like he likes me"

I didn't say anything back but that was still pretty funny to me. Note the words thank and wid. Those were my favorites.

lulz!

Oh and p.s.
Happy Halloween I guess

You guys have no idea how excited I am about November.

For reals.

Get ready, because it's going to be awesome!

I got my present from Zach last night. He got me the sweetest digital camera. It's a pretty simple camera, but you can change the shutter speed and aperture and it's got some pretty sweet stuff on it for what it is. I'm super excited. I haven't really ever had a good digital camera. My other one was alright, but this one is awesome. I was going to get him some basketball tickets to go see the Oklahoma City NBA team play his favorite team, the Spurs, when it was here but he didn't act too excited about it and now I have no idea what to do.

Oh yeah, I brought my cat back to my apartment from my mom's. Now we have a furry little shit running around, but he just so happens to be adorable all at the same time. He's cute, but likes to wake us up super early in the morning by meowing outside the door and stuff.

I'm going to get back to watching Jurassic Park. Hopefully I'll be able to conclude this day with a nice bike ride by the lake with Zach. We'll see though. :)

Have I ever mentioned the fact that I pretty much have the best boyfriend ever? I thought I'd just throw that one out there.

Today started out super shitty. I mean super duper shitty. It's surprising how awesome coming home to find the entire apartment cleaned and vacuumed and everything is.

I shouldn't be so nervous to work at another store. It is the first time for me to work at another store as a shift, and it is an opening shift, but oh well. I know pretty much what to do. If it weren't for Katy, I totally wouldn't have picked it up. Who knows, maybe this will open me up to being more willing to work at other stores. I just hope I don't mess anything up, especially because I'm working so long. Eek, we'll see.

I hardly ever really think highly of myself. Not to say that I hate myself all the time or anything, but I rarely ever just go, "Huh, I'm pretty alright." When I was in high school and even when I was younger I had the worst self esteem ever. Probably because I never heard anything to think otherwise. No one ever said anything nice about me. In fact, I got made fun of a lot. More so in elementary school though.

Anyway, today one of our customers, Todd, who is one of the best customers ever told me, "I certainly hope the people in your life appreciate you for who you are." It made me think about it, and for the first time I can definitely say yes - they do. It feels really good too. I mean, even I appreciate me for me. That's a big deal for me.

Everyone should appreciate and love themselves. Take it from someone who has experience-it can make life so very much better.

Sometimes I think it would be easier to just leave things alone and let everyone do what they want and not let them know if something bothers me. Sometimes I would rather just not say anything than get in an argument or long discussion. I guess it feels that way because sometimes when I get upset at something I really question why I'm getting upset. At the time it seems easier to not say anything and let it build up until I have a break down and freak out. I really don't know what to say about this, because I'm so mixed. I just, don't know.

I'm sick. Awesome. I just hope it stays in my nose and doesn't give me a horribly sore throat. Plez?

After going 2 weeks with taking care of Zach and not feeling sick at all, I think it's finally hitting me. Shit shit shit. I thought I wasn't going to get sick. Hopefully it's just allergies, even though it doesn't feel like it. SHIT.