11 posts from September 2008

I need to stop letting myself get so stressed out sometimes. I mean, a little bit of stress is actually good for you but I completely overwhelm myself with it. It always comes back to me with huge headaches after I stop being so stressed too. I keep getting them and I'm taking ibuprofen like it's candy. Hopefully now that I'm a little over it my headaches will go away.

It feels so good to be off of my feet. I worked a long time today.

I feel a bit overwhelmed with all of it lately, and not even just work. I mean, life in general I guess. I'm only 20, but I feel like I have the responsibilities of a 30 year old, minus the whole kids thing. I know I gave up the right to have few responsibilities when I stopped going to college, moved out of my mom's (or should I say got kicked out), and all of that. It just kind of scares me to think of it all. I pay all of the bills and make sure they're in on time, I take care of myself and all of my medical expenses, I'm responsible for myself and everything that has to do with me and even half the stuff that has to do with Zach. I take care of Zach half the time and I'm not complaining, I love it and I love him. It just seems like it all just snuck up on me.

I feel like running away sometimes. Like just grabbing Zach and saying, "Let's go." I know I can't, but it'd be so nice to be able to get away from it all sometimes. I think one of the main reasons why I want to move to a completely different city is that I feel like maybe if that happens, I can get away from some of the stuff I don't want to deal with. It could also make it so much harder. I don't know, I guess I'm just scared. I never would have seen myself where I am at this age.

I was pretty much a mega-bitch at work today. I was super irritable and wanted to tell everyone to leave! Get out! Then I got home and felt much better. That's what happens when you pms I suppose.

Oh well.

I had someone tell me today that I have "the most beautiful dark brown eyes" they had ever seen. It made me smile pretty big.

I also rediscovered an artist I really like. His name is Luke Chueh

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That's just two things he's done. I really like it.

Riding bikes? Yes! I just rode like 3-4 miles. It was so much fun!

I love baking. It's fun. :)

I think I'm getting sick. Boooooo.

Hopefully not though.

So, my mom forgot my sister's birthday, again, for the 3rd year in a row. I really don't get it. How can you forget your kid's birthday? No matter how old they get. Getting a "Happy Birthday" is always nice, despite the age. Is that too much to expect from your mom? That's all I'm going to say.

It won't roll up. I hate it so hard, I'm going to punch it!

It just randomly started raining really hard, but there's no thunder or anything and it's barely dark outside. I mean the clouds look too thin to need to rain. Weird.